the most beautiful man in the world 

a few things happened these past few days. firstly i found out that im posted to sgh for ISP. im alone with a few peeps. at least there's fiona so hopefully that wont be so bad. i was hoping that i'll get ttsh cos its nearer home.
there's also the mambo sale that made me went berserk and i just found out that radiyah bought the same top. the exact one which i bought. i can confidently and firmly say that i bought the top first. im still thinking if i should get the black denim pants.
and i have decided to join nyaa but im still deciding if i should sign up for the mendaki volunteer work thingy.

btw this is to a certain someone. all i can say is go and kiss my ass lar. ppl dont do that. once you've made a plan, you should fucking stick to it. you dont walk off without telling me. this is the second fucking time. there i said it.

bibik told me i've lost weight...i still dont think so lar.

and oh yeah. i did survive the class. i dont fucking need you.

ive been pretty pissed with a few ppl. why do i have shitty ppl in my life?

DreamerZ : from 25-7-04 i promiss no gay no more, i shall learn to like gers onece again says:
the bio lesson really killing mi sia`
DreamerZ : from 25-7-04 i promiss no gay no more, i shall learn to like gers onece again says:
really catch no balls
 i am who i am says:
yalor...

i didnt catch any balls too, boys.

instead of doing some revision, im actually checking out other blogs. its really interesting when you know someone for a long time and yet you actually dont really know anything about that person. get it?

today my grp had to do a lil presentation for socialogy class. that damn bhavani. urgh. the more i think about it, the more im pissed at her.
i think i did pretty well eh. at least nizam and i took the initiative and i was surprisingly confident. no last minute jitters. no shaky tone. no screwing up. did wat i had to do.

a few of my girlfriends told me that maybe i can look for a hot looking guy in poly. there were a few hot looking guys. like for example this morning, this really hot malay guy passed by and my other half was telling me that he is from silat. damn me for not joining silat. thats the place where i can find good looking malay men ( its not like a hot malay men society). but i have to run around. i hate running. thats the price i have to pay. maybe i'll think about it. i'm still waiting for tennis club to call me.

urgh..tmr is bioscience lecture. either zzzzzzzzzz or stock up on candies.

GREEN (February 9th - February 18th)
You get along well with new people. You are not really a shy person, but sometimes you can hurt people's feelings by your words... You like to be loved and noticed by your lover, but mostly you are single, waiting for the right person. 
 
kinda true.

caught connie and carla with siti, radiyah and bhavani. for the first time in my years of movie watching, today was the first time that my drink was confiscated. so was radiyah's and bhavani's. ok so i didnt buy at golden village but instead i brought in pepsi which i bought at kfc. firstly the drinks at gv are expensive and i still had like half cup full of pepsi left . and secondly she didnt have to be all fucked up about it. damn that indian bitch. i think she was in charge for the day. what an ass. stupid mama plek.

today at clinical, mrs cheong showed us a condom like urinal system, which had a shaft and a hole at the tip for male patients who are in coma. she demonstrated to us on how to use that thing on the penis. but of course she did it on the dummy. the thought of me doing it to a real male human being is..well..disgusting lar. but i have to be professional about it eh.

i have sch tmr. having nyaa student's meeting. im kinda looking forward to that actually.

i wanna watch catwoman!

me cant function without my daily dose of music. my discman is fucked up. the only source of music i can rely is my handphone.

this afternoon's practical was a lil intimidating. dr li bei was not around. instead this woman doctor took over. started explaining everything about these damn bones.

right now, im studying, waddaya know....bones. i have to copy and draw all the vertabrae. dont bother asking. they are all bones.

met farah and zian on the train yesterday.

cant wait for tomorrow.

cross cultural psychology was damn fun. thomas, the lecturer was hilarious. plus paul was beside me. so i had a fun time eh this evening.
 
had the uniform fitting today. i looked so nursey. i'll try to post a picture of me with the uniform on soon.
 
doing some e-learning now. sigh. i have to study chemistry which i cant understand a thing. so i'm really cracking my brains. at least i know something when the lecturer teach tmr. anybody who wants to pass their chemistry knowledge to me, please post them at the tag board. but hopefully i dont need much lar. after all the dude is teaching all the basics and my other half is teaching me.
 
i came back today all lethargic and tired and whacked.
 
the parents are watching spiderman 2.
 
i need a helluva sleep.
 

today was a crazy day. after the second tutorial, radiyah and siti asked me if i wanted to hang around in town while waiting for the next class. after all i had about 5 hrs to kill.  so five of us, radiyah, siti, nizam, paul and i went to town together but the guys went to lucky plaze to shoot some pool and the three of us went shopping. since the three of us are all into roxy we headed to surfbabe and siti got a top. later we went to pacific plaza and i got myself a rip curl and stussy tee.i never thought that i will shop today. i was saving my money for tmr but instead i spent it today. thank god i still have money for tmr. i dunno what came over me eh. suddenly it was like buy, buy, buy. dont care. u'll get ur money next week. just spent.
 
as if that's not enough, radiyah wanted to go to the one at paragon. and i so wanted to buy the sweatpants but i had to discipline myself eh. after all the crazy shopping, we met up with the guys and had lunch before heading back to school.
 
paul is insane eh.
 
wanted to go for the stage drama audition but it was damn long and maya told me that i'll probably finish by 9 so without thinking twice, i went to the bookstore, got my two thick books and head home.
 
im whacked and my right arm is aching!
 

i got to go home early today! woohoo.... a few of us including myself were on our way to the lecture theatre and all of a sudden everyone just walked out of the theatre. it seems that the sewage pipe burst. btw i didnt know there was a sewage pipe in the theatre. there was a pungent smell. it smelled like all three hundred of us farted at the same time. i had a feeling nizam was the cause of it. he dropped his phone in the toilet bowl like 5 mins before the whole incident happened. him or not him, i was really glad that the pipe burst. nas was screaming lecture cancelled. finally after almost two weeks i can go home early.

shoud i get a new phone or a new discman first?

poor old me is in school. i was in the middle of doing some e learning when the bioscience module disappeared. i was studying something i thought that i will never ever touch again: atoms. read this: PHYSICS..argh...i cant believe that i still have to study neutrons, protons and electrons. i thought it was over. thats the reason why i did so poorly for physics. bioscience is so farking difficult. i couldnt absorb anything what the lecturer said. another lecture on bioscience is coming up later. the only thing im looking foward to is my driving. i was so relieved when ystrdy's instructor was the understanding one. i cant stand the cock eyed ass. always making me panic.

tonight must study bones. what a life!

today i played a role of a parent. the parents are not in singapore so i had to send my two busy sisters to school. first i had to send amirah to sch and meet has at bishan and get our certs at kcp and now im in british council waiting for nila. im really tired. i still have to run around afetr a hectic week in school and i think im catching a flu and a fever. what a timing. i dont have the energy to stand and walk and climb the over head bridge and take a bus and walk to kinokuniya to get my weekly dosage of entertainment. instead i have to spend my next 2 hours sitting in a cafe, sitting in between an indian woman who is constantly screaming at her kids and the two boys who are always yaking. so here i am typing my thoughts...

i went back to kcp and met melvin and andy. btw mel i think uve developed some fats and i think thats good. u look tougher ;). the new school is big and they've retained some things like the spiral staircase which was the school landmark, according to ms teo. pfft. saw very few teachers. and met dina and aquilah and the other two cinas at macs. cik mona left. all the poor melayus have to suffer with the prison food makcik.

i can finally be my old self when im with has. i can finally talk nonsense and critisize ppl without being judged. i miss her ass and her arms, my all time favourite cushion. we talked about school, life, relationships, regrets, the past and all the other bullshits we always talk and laughed about. and she got that plastic bag from roxy which every malay chikas in poly are using. now i know why. it cost 10 bucks.

the organic peppermint tea here is really soothing.

THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY. i so need alot of rest after a hectic week in school. i hardly ever spent quality time with this beloved, although sometimes a lil fucked up pc eh. so school is pretty much not what i expected. i have lots of break. like for eg today. i had 6 hrs of free time so i decided to go home and sleep, eat, use the pc and tune in to the tube.

made friends. went to lectures which by the way are boring, well at least a few of them only. socialogy was great stuff though. i think i'll do better in socialogy than in bioscience which is like harder than bio in sec sch. hopefully i'll do well *crosses finger*. the food in nyp is like really good. i can get quite a satisfying plate of nasi campur for only $2. and the fishball noodles is cheap and good. niwaes anatomy lesson was ok. clinical lab was interesting, esp the dummys. saza always laughed at the plastic penis on the dummy. saying that the dummy is getting really horny and stuff.

i pity ppl who is in poly and have financial problems. i spent almost 300 bucks on school this week. there's the essential anatomy and physiololgy book that we have to buy. its like a holy book. everyone is all rushing to get it. and there's the transportation. and i just remembered i have to get this fundamental book on nursing which cost like 85 bucks and the anatomy workbook too. i cant wait to get my money. i dont want to depend on my parents anymore.

cant wait to meet has tmr. i havent seen her for a long time. i miss her to bits.

today is the first day of school and i am extremely whacked to the bones. i had to run around and find my classes. i was completely lost when i had to find my tutorial class. on top of that i had to rush to ssdc and the usual stupid me; i ran all the way to the main entrance when i could easily went out from the back gate which was much much nearer to ssdc. besides sweating like an ass, i wasted 10 mins.

met rozi. saw kenneth. tomorrow is the cca fair. im thinking of joining the arts ;)

im whacked!

ystrdy was shs orientation. it was..well..what can you expect during orientaions. the usual things like ice breakers, games, talks from directors and blah blah blah. now my whole schedule is a mess. driving and classes. u have at least 1hr of free time everyday. i still have to choose an elective class which starts on the 3rd week of monday.
all this for a diploma. like wat ungku said 'sacrifice now, enjoy later'.